Why wasn't I there to say No!
Please stay, I need you so...
When did I lose the consciousness
Of his being, his person ?

When I close my eyes, can I recall
The feeling of his skin,
The smooth plains of his back
The coarseness of his chest ?

No.

Does he do to me the miracles of old ?
Does he move me to tears, to love
Or did I forget to feel,
To make his efforts worthwhile ?

Yes or No

If yes, then my love is over.
My best friend gone, my love extinct.
For to lose his love,
Makes my life unnecessary.

If No, then what have I done ?
Have I sacrificed our togetherness
Only to appease my pride,
To feed my petty doubts ?

Yes, Yes, Yes

I fear my Love, my friend,
I have forfeited our promised vows.
On account of self-importance,
Because I thought I needed more.

But now dear Love, I beg.
Accept me back right now
Even though you did not know I left
To wander the road to self-righteousness.

Accept me unconditionally.
Love me uncontrollably.
Shares my joys, but too my pain,
And love me forever more.

Sunchild