Becoming
Transformation is the changing from one state into another, becoming a different entity altogether. During such a change one would necessarily acquire new capabilities, new talents, befitting the new state of being. One would also have to let go of outmoded thought patterns, ways of behavior and reaction to environment.
I have sensed the changes occurring within myself for some time now, the feeling of a moving toward a point where I will be new, reborn into an altered state of mind.
The caterpillar has no knowledge of its growth, no clue as to the ultimate metamorphosis into the butterfly that will follow its constant craving for nourishment. It merely knows to eat and eat...
I on the other hand, have the sense of being to know that my constant craving for nourishment, is of the soul. I feel compelled to accumulate knowledge in order to understand the changes that are taking place within my spirit. I have the need to be able to assess the degree of shift in my perceptions, and yet I can't do that. I will have no way of knowing the extent of the transformation at a glance. Only as my mind touches on formerly recognizable issues and come up with a feeling of change, will I be able to know that my perceptions on that issue has forever been altered.
An example could be the way I allowed others to treat or view me. Before I became aware of the new power I possessed, I would not have felt so utterly unable to accept disrespectful behavior towards me. Having now gained a clear understanding of my worth and talent, I now find that there is the need for respect. This is not mere ego. I am not vain or domineering in my view of the situation. Rather I find the demand for respect to reflect the newfound respect that I have for myself.
Sunchild